The Hard Problem of Consciousness

I was hanging out with some philosophers this weekend at Theology Beer Camp. Here's a sonnet that fell out of my journal. The Hard Problem of Consciousness Are we just flukes of impossible chance?Could something as uncharted as my mindEmerge from concrete churn of cosmic dance?Colliding into consciousness to findEternity's blind dream seated nowIn timeContinue reading "The Hard Problem of Consciousness"

A Better View

A Better View after Matthew 18:22 It takes a long timeTo get to the beginning.It takes decades, maybe,To dig up to breaking dirt.Counting up to zeroFrom minus forty-nine –Counting up form negativeFive hundred thirty-nine –It’s seven times sevenTimes seven times time!The first shall be last,Because your first is far beneath you;Underground and dead where youContinue reading "A Better View"

Where Wolves Go

Photo Cred: Manfred Neumair Where Wolves Go I pressed my palm into the snowBeside your giant paw;My fingers stretched just longer thanThe claws above your toes;I want right now to understandYour running into lowsAnd over highs with empty jaws;I want to feel desire's ache,Your longing's lactic acid flowThat blood alone can slake.Could anything propel meContinue reading "Where Wolves Go"

I Could Never Write a Love Song

The choice is clear; I know the only thingFor anything is love. No matter whatThe claims of either side may be, we singCreation into nothingness, and cutThe chords that sing inside us unless weIn flowing fifths or even fourths, our choice,Addend the primal song of love. We're free To make each note our own; butContinue reading "I Could Never Write a Love Song"

On Ways of Would-Have-Beens

One wakeful midnight, I went where my mindWould go, and found myself a ways down waysOf Would-Have-Beens, in woods where many kindsOf rancors live -- red hot regret, despairAmong them most for me. But that night cameA coolness (maybe from the mountain airI welcomed through my open window frame,Or maybe the cicadas singing there)That placedContinue reading "On Ways of Would-Have-Beens"

On Missing the Perseid Meteor Shower

On Missing the Perseid Meteor Shower  I didn’t have it in me; not this year. Instead, I dozed in dreamless sleep. Lights on, Heartsong silenced, dreamscapes dashed by TV Sounds, flickers, surfeit of nothingness squared.  Meanwhile, high above me, Earth’s atmosphere Was sparking falling stars. Now night’s gone, And morning dreams of what I failed to see Are only flicked off matches whenContinue reading "On Missing the Perseid Meteor Shower"

Counting Birds On My Front Porch 

Counting Birds On My Front Porch  That’s two hundred swallows, it must be, (200) Nine mallards chasing their lust free, (9) Four sparrows in street dirt get dusty, (4) And across the lake in the brush, I can just see One heron so stark-still he trusts me. (1)  Six geese gliding doubled in lake green, (6) Two mourning dove songsContinue reading "Counting Birds On My Front Porch "

Nephelococcygia 

Nephelococcygia From νεφέλη (nephélē, “cloud”) +‎ κόκκῡξ (kókkūx, “cuckoo”) +‎ -ῐ́ᾱ (-íā). 1. cloud-cuckoo-land, a utopia, imaginary place with unrealistic or silly people.  Dragons and dolphins mostly; Draping my waking eyes in dreams, Whilst stare I high above to see Forever in the shapes that more than seem. They grow me toward whom I’m meant to be, This they must and do achieve. A singing bird in flight, A wolf’s head, hippo, cartoon ear, AllContinue reading "Nephelococcygia "

On Forgetting the Names of Trees 

for Gerard Manley Hopkins and the kingfishers he saw catch fire Oak, Elm and Cedar, Pitch Pine, Walnut, Spruce. Your names, dear friends, must speak and spell this place, And yet my habits baffle in disuse Of lips and lungs to lovingly embrace The shapes of Birch and Beach -- of Tulip Tree -- Unmaking ground beneath my feet, beneath WhichContinue reading "On Forgetting the Names of Trees "

Hospital Notes #4: When We Took Off Our Masks

The News The World Health Organization said on Friday, May 5th, that COVID-19 no longer qualifies as a global emergency. The leaders of the hospital where I work took that news as the last item in their decision tree and lifted the mandatory mask order for all patients and staff. Of course, personal protective equipmentContinue reading "Hospital Notes #4: When We Took Off Our Masks"

What I Know: A sonnet with the Marquis of Lossie

If you know me, you know I love George MacDonald. I write down quotes as I read through his works. I haven't read them all yet, but I'm getting closer! This quote felt like it was close to a found poem all by itself, but it evolved into a sonnet below. "Does he not demandContinue reading "What I Know: A sonnet with the Marquis of Lossie"

Walking on the Beach

Thinking about feet and Matthew 7:24-27 on Maundy ThursdayWalking on the BeachDesiccation ready here,Crumbling sand crunches,Despite the wet sea breeze. Lumpy waves of wind-made moundsTo plod throughAs I seek the ocean’s prize;Not quite dunesBut dune-likeOn a smaller scale. Here, Near my home,The Jersey ShoreIs streaked with darker sand,Stirred throughWith bits of shells;This is a placeContinue reading "Walking on the Beach"

A Prayer to the Unflinching East

I'm letting Thomas Keating lead me through Lent this year with a collection of his meditations called Journey to the Center. Each day's reading includes a prayer. "Deliriously Happy Light" began one of the prayers. "Deliriously" is an interestingly two iambed word, so, naturally, it began a sonnet. Keating's work as a writer and communityContinue reading "A Prayer to the Unflinching East"